My Search for Meaning



This article is work in progress.


5+ years of isolation and deep study - hundreds of hours studying the fabric of my consciousness, reading thousands of pages, meeting spiritual masters. Finally I found my answer & I was able to continue my life.

At 19 I realized that people go through life being clueless and ignorant. The bad news? I was doomed to the same fate, if I continue on the known path of the average person.

This led me to an extreme decision: life makes no sense if it is lived aimlessly, at random, going with the average. No! This will not be my path! I had perfect certainty: I will find the answer. I know. I can. I am finding it, even if it is the only thing I do in this life. There must be at least 1 person on this earth who can help, and I will find that person. No matter where. no matter how. Come what may. I will find the answer.

This conclusion led me to more than 5 years of intense searches
  • meditating at peak 8h per day and going extremely deep inside my mind and my being
  • reading thousands of pages
  • meeting and learning from extremely interesting people
  • and many other things.

    • All this, only to fulfill one purpose: find the answer.

    The journey still continues and will continue for the rest of my life, but I found a good enough answer, one I was satisified with, and allowed me to go back to "normal" life. So I became a dream-builder, an entrepreneur.